Coming of Age
Have you ever experienced that sudden urge for change? In life, self or just the moment? Like really change, a tangible one that is so inevitable you don’t even know that you are doing it already? Well, I just had that moment. My love for music was like a message from the universe telling me I have to grow up. A week before I turn 26, a phrase that knocked my senses back to reality — coming of age.
Looking back, what a freaking rollercoaster ride. As much as I want to list down the 26 things I have learned in my early 20’s, lol, I can’t there is still so much to learn. I just decided to start my twenties now. Ever since high school, I know that I am a late bloomer learning things and taking them seriously a little bit later it was never a problem until it came to my senses that I had to take care of myself. To love oneself is the hardest thing to do.
Twenty-six, for some it must be late to realize that they are growing up and must be who they really are. Aging for some might be stressful with all the wrinkles and everything but for me, I’m excited about it. This is the time where I can be the person I am supposed to be! A little late, yes, but I am coming after many showers of rain, suns, and blows. Life might get dull as time goes by, but the kid in me will just rest for a while she’ll be back when things are settled. The adult will take charge for the moment. So, you know, I think the age of exploration is just beginning.
Life has a really fun way to tell you the things you are destined to do. Whether in a painful or pleasant way there are still things to learn, to see, and reflect on. Just because you are put in the same situation does not mean you will not listen to what the circumstances are telling you, each will be different every time. I think the key is that know where your destination is going to be and stick with that no matter what. It will never be easy, hardships will be there whatever you choose, might as well do the things that will make you happy. Here I am, yet again late to realize that I had to be responsible but anyway we are here now, it made so much sense why I had a really hard time last year, not because of the pandemic, still sucks tho Coronavirus FU, but because I was resisting the change in my life.
I was never ashamed of what I used to be, every piece is what made me today but I really wanted to say sorry for the people I hurt back then I do really wish to make up with them. No one stays the same, and if they do they’ll get extinct. So, this is me saying goodbye (still emotionally literally crying right now) to the twenty-five-year-old child and embracing the changes that will come. Whatever it is remember, to stay true to your emotions but always be kinder than what you felt.
